Friday, August 19, 2016

5 on Friday

I thought I would jump back into doing my 5 on Friday posts! IT's always fun to re-cap the week, and we have had a pretty busy week! So... here goes!

1. I started my LAST SEMESTER of college this week! I even took a picture, for my mom of course! I have 1 class that lasts 4 weeks, then I will be in full-time student teaching mode!

2. Xander started gymnastics for the year! He has some great coaches and he is loving it! This summer, h had some hard times, he didn't want to leave my side and would not go into class on hiw own. Last night, when they called for his class... he just walked across the lobby and went right on in! He amazes me. And, he is really doing a good job, or as he would say... he is doing his "very best".
3. I have been taking Xander's Picture every morning before school. I compiled a little collage of them for the blog! He is seriously the cutest! You can follow his daily pictures on Insta with #XPFK3

4. Ok, so this one is kind of random. But, I am DYING to get my hands on one of these shirts! I seriously love it so much. I know it's so weird... but it is so cute and looks so comfy!
P.S. I am sad that the Olympics are almost over... But that's a story for another day.

5. I am So excited to announce that I will start student teaching in the next few weeks! I will be at Emerson Elementary in 1st grade!! I cannot wait to get in there and learn everything I can! I will be posting some fun stuff and updates on the blog HERE!! Follow along with me on this journey!

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Friday, August 12, 2016

The Day My Baby Became A Little Boy

Well... it happened. My baby started school. How on earth this happened, I have no idea. He should still be my tiny little snuggle buddy, but instead, he is now at school making new buddies. I know, I know... He will always be my baby. And, you may be surprised to find that I have not shed one tear due to him starting school! I thought I'd be a mess, but it has been so exciting that I haven't let one tear fall.

I knew I wanted to start a tradition of First Day of School pictures. My mom always did that for me and my brother growing up. This will be something special that Xander can look back on later.

Once he had his backpack on, he was ready to go. He just underestimated the amount of pictures I would be taking.

I wrote out this chalkboard the night before. It might look familiar... It is the same chalkboard that I used to do my bump-updates when I was pregnant with him. It has been hanging in his room, with different quotes and scriptures on it. So, that's kinda special!

He is now 3 years old, and in K-3!

He looks so much like his daddy here!

I love this shot of the two of them.

Showing off his backpack. My mom ordered it for him from Pottery Barn Kids.

Of course... he has the matching lunchbox with his initials on it. by the way... I love his initials! They are so unique!

When I told him I had one more picture I wanted to take, he sat for a minute to ponder if he really wanted to go to school.

Then I got him smiling!

My favorite picture. He looks so happy and excited!

And again... with the "3"!

He got his backpack up on his hook!

We both dropped him off on his first day. The first thing they did was puzzles. He is a puzzle pro, so he enjoyed it! We stayed for just  a minute or two to watch him and then we snuck out.

It's almost as if I can here him saying "Mommy, go to work!"

I know I will be doing so many fun posts about things he is learning in school. He loves it so much already and it has only been one week. He prays for his teacher and his friends in class every single night. I love his heart.

My prayer for him is that he will continue to grow in knowledge and in faith. I pray that he makes good friends, and always shows love to others. I am just so excited for this next journey!

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Monday, August 8, 2016

Meet The Teacher Night at Lakewood Christian School

Tonight, we went to the Open House, and we got to meet his teacher, Mrs. Patrick. Mrs. Patrick informed us that his original teacher, Mrs. B, has been having some health issues, so Mrs. Patrick took over. 

Cute side story, we have been praying for Mrs. B and his "friends from school" the past few weeks, before meeting any of them. Tonight, Xander asked if we could pray for Mrs. B and his friends. I told him that we could, but that Mrs. B was not his teacher anymore, because she was sick. So, he asked if we could pray for Mrs. Patrick and his friends. We prayed for them. After that, he said "Mommy, let's pray for Mrs. B, she needs medicine". We do not know the health issues that Mrs. Patrick told us about, but we prayed that she would be happy and healthy. 

This was Xander's name on the door. 

Xander is happy to be a Lakewood Lion!

He found his backpack hook in the hallway.

It's funny, he found his name and just sat there for a moment, taking things in. Then, he realized there were a whole bunch of toys behind him, so he moved on to those!

We are so excited for his First Day of School! I can't wait to see how much he grows this year in K-3!

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Monday, August 1, 2016

7 Months

Well, it has been a solid 7 months since I have written. Not too much has happened in the past 7 months. I am still in school, still working the same job. I have had some great experiences that have been life-changing, and Xander turned 3 years old! The next few weeks and months will bring some exciting times!

Xander starts school next week!! If that is not a huge wake-up call, then I don't know what is. He will be in K3 at Lakewood Christian School.

I start student teaching in about 6 weeks! I got my placement today! I will be in First Grade!! Best part is, one of my good friends from school will be teaching 2nd Grade just down the hall from me!

I'm going to try to slowly post some of the happenings from the past 7 months, as well as start my regular posts again!

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Thursday, December 31, 2015

2015//Bye Felicia!

When I look back on 2015, I have a lot of mixed feelings. But for the most part, I think this pretty much sums it up...

We started the year out deciding to try to have another baby, only to find out after 8 months of infertility, and 2 different doctor's and several pages of blood work, that I have PCOS.

I had two very stressful semesters, went back and fourth on when to graduate, finally deciding for my health to just take it slow and relax. I'm not in a hurry.

After realizing that I was literally killing my body by all of the stress that I was willingly letting into my life, I decided to start using the word "No". This was hard for me, because I have always been a "YES" person. I guess you could say I got it from my momma.

I have lost almost 30 pounds since being diagnosed with a disease that causes weight gain and the inability to lose weight. That makes me a fighter. #PCOSWarrior

I have accepted the fact that I might not always get what I want when I want it.
This is God's show, not mine.

I have become more and more grateful for the things I do have. Especially Xander. Even though the doctor and I feel that my PCOS was not developed until after I had Xander, because I got pregnant so quickly/easily, it still makes me feel so thankful to have him.

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I mean, there is a possibility that I may never be able to conceive again! That scares me and there isn't a single day that the worry of that possibility doesn't cross my mind for at least a moment. But, I try not to dwell on it. Because, God has already gifted me with the sweetest, silliest, most loving and caring little boy ever! I can't help but just dwell on THAT!!

Craig Groeschel recently said in one of his messages in the When God Doesn't Make Sense series, "If God always met your expectations, he'd never have the opportunity to exceed them". This is like the THEME of my life in 2015. I have decided that when I look back at the ups and downs, the tears and heartache, and the times I never thought I would make it out alive... This will be what I remember.

Also, if he isn't answering me now, because he wants to exceed MY expectations... just think of what he DOES have planned!

Will I get pregnant in 2016? Probably not. (That would be God's sense of humor)

Will PCOS go away in 2016? No.

Will 2016 be the year that all of my troubles go away? Probably not.

Will I have NO STRESS in 2016? Definitely not.

But... just thinking about where I'v been and where I am headed gives me hope.

So, Here's to 2016! This will be a great year! I am believing it right now! I have a great mindset already. I have my mind, body, and soul ready to go!

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Wednesday, September 23, 2015

Emotional Roller Coaster

Wow! They weren’t kidding when they said that PCOS causes you to be an emotional wreck. I have had times when I have had a wide range of emotions, but yesterday was just one of those days where I honestly didn’t know whether to laugh or cry, like within the same minute.

I got a call early in the evening telling me that I have been selected to receive one of two scholarships that is being given by the local retired teacher’s association. I was thrilled! I was so happy… I started crying while I was still on the phone with the teacher. Luckily, I don’t think he knows who I am; I never had his class in high school. But, I know who he is.

Then, later in the evening, I just started to feel down on myself, for NO REASON!!! I mean, really?! How can I go from being so happy to being so upset, about NOTHING?!? I feel like I have absolutely no control over my emotions and it really sucks. PCOS really sucks. It is not fair. I don’t understand why I have this.

With all of this being said, the one thing that I do know, is that I am 1 in 10. That means that I am not alone in this. I am not the only person who feels like they are walking on sunshine one minute then sitting under a black rain cloud the next. I have already received so much love and support from my friends and family, as well as the online PCOS community. I have found some awesome Bloggers and Instagram pagers, as well as tons of useful recipes.

So, here’s to 2 weeks down, and many many more to go!  

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Thursday, September 17, 2015

Recent Discoveries

Warning: This kind of stuff is hard for me to talk about. I am a crier, so if I was telling this story in person, I would definitely cry. Good thing it's just in writing.

Last year, we decided that we would try for Baby #2. For 6 months we tried, with no luck.  We finally realized that it was not the right time.

With school.. and work.. and church.. and our normal busy life, I felt God telling me that it was just not meant to be right now. I really hated that. But, once again, I had to quit trying to control everything and try to do things on my time, and just let God handle it.

So, would I say that I had fertility problems? No. Not necessarily. It was only 6 months. I know people have tried for a lot longer than that. I just truly feel that God has a better plan for our family and that right now is not the right time to have a new baby in the mix.

The above writing was a draft that has been sitting in my "I'll publish this someday" box for a few weeks. I knew I wanted to add to it, and that the story was not done. I knew that it did not contain all of the information that it needed.

A few weeks ago, I visited a doctor in the city. I had heard rave reviews about her helping a friend of mine with thyroid issues and with all of the medical history in my family, I wanted to get checked out. At first, she said she thought I might have a thyroid issue or a food allergy, OR a food allergy INDUCED thyroid issue. Whew, that is a mouthful.

So I went back a week later for results. Turns out, I have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. I also have Hypothyroid, my cholesterol is high, and my hormones are all over the map! So, was I having fertility problems? YES! PCOS can cause infertility. It IS possible for me to get pregnant again, but I need to get all of these other things fixed first.

My doctor and I talked about how I got to this point. Basically, she says that when I started school last summer I probably started making poor food choices, and when I started classes in the classroom and we started eating out more and more, my body just started to get used to that lifestyle. Because of all of the stress and crazy life, I made bad food choices, and when I started eating poorly, it made my body go into more stress. So, low and behold... here I am.

So, there are medications to help with what is going on with me, but my doctor is tying to see what we can correct with diet. She has me on NO GLUTEN, NO DAIRY, NO SUGAR, and Decreased Carbs.

My appointment was last Tuesday, and since I left that appointment, I have not knowingly put any of those things in my mouth. I was worried at first as to what I would actually be able to eat, but there are quite a few things actually. I am still working on my staple items, including a list of pumpkin things since it is finally Pumpkin Spice Season!! (WOOT WOOT) I did find an AMAZING "everything free" Pumpkin Pie Smoothie" I will share the recipe on here later!

Anyway, I feel a lot better now that I have that off of chest and out of my draft box.

We have decided that I will take next semester off and do my student teaching in the fall. This will allow us to have more time to save money, and less stress.

We have also come to the conclusion that it may be a few years before we expand our family, and that is okay. My health is a lot more important that the number of years that I think would be ideal between my children's age.

A lot of this process is letting go and letting God take control. But, with Him, and the support of my friends and family, I will get there!!

P.S. PCOS is very common! Actually, 1 in 10 women suffer from it. I have already been connected with people including old friends that have this that I would not have even expected to have been able to lean on for support. Don't be afraid to share this with others! That's what community is all about!

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